Perhaps the number one struggle of any new or seeking convert is the theology of Mary. Real Presence, Saints, and the Catholic view of grace and salvation are also big issues to overcome.
I'm not struggling with Marian theology in that I can't wrap my head around it. I have read articles, and listened to numerous homilies and podcasts on the subject. I can fully accept the theology no problem....if it is True.
That's the clincher for me. Is Mary as the Catholic Church says she is? I must know from Mother, herself.
There is just too much at stake here, and I simply no longer trust man, denominations, or myself.
I have humbly asked Mary for a small favor/miracle, to show me that she is who the Catholic Church says she is. If I receive this favor I will have to become Catholic.
But, what happens if I do not receive this favor?! I have a pit in my stomach just thinking about it, and I sincerely hope Mary pulls through and gives me what I asked because I don't know what I'd do otherwise. I would be lost. Back to square one of my journey.
I am trying to be patient. I asked Mary to grant this favor before the end of the year and I trust that any waiting I am doing is actually preparation. I admit that part of needing this favor is to have a bone to throw to the any opposition I get from my Protestant family (who will likely say it is either a coincidence or that Satan could grant this favor and pretend it was Mary, but for me, I will know because I asked her, myself).
My heart aches for this to come to pass. Almost every day I look around and wonder, "will this be it? Here's an opportunity! It's just a simple thing, plausible, please grant it and give me my answer I so desperately need!"
My whole journey has been seeking original truth about how I am to love and serve and worship God here on earth. What did He establish before He ascended to Heaven? I think I may have found it, but I just need this key to the last lock.
Mother Mary, please grant me my plea. If you do not it means you are not there and I am once again lost. Jesus, I seek Your Truth and only Your Truth. Have you established Your Mother as Queen of Heaven? If so, please, with her, grant me the favor I ask.
In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Ghost, Amen.
I'm not struggling with Marian theology in that I can't wrap my head around it. I have read articles, and listened to numerous homilies and podcasts on the subject. I can fully accept the theology no problem....if it is True.
That's the clincher for me. Is Mary as the Catholic Church says she is? I must know from Mother, herself.
There is just too much at stake here, and I simply no longer trust man, denominations, or myself.
I have humbly asked Mary for a small favor/miracle, to show me that she is who the Catholic Church says she is. If I receive this favor I will have to become Catholic.
But, what happens if I do not receive this favor?! I have a pit in my stomach just thinking about it, and I sincerely hope Mary pulls through and gives me what I asked because I don't know what I'd do otherwise. I would be lost. Back to square one of my journey.
I am trying to be patient. I asked Mary to grant this favor before the end of the year and I trust that any waiting I am doing is actually preparation. I admit that part of needing this favor is to have a bone to throw to the any opposition I get from my Protestant family (who will likely say it is either a coincidence or that Satan could grant this favor and pretend it was Mary, but for me, I will know because I asked her, myself).
My heart aches for this to come to pass. Almost every day I look around and wonder, "will this be it? Here's an opportunity! It's just a simple thing, plausible, please grant it and give me my answer I so desperately need!"
My whole journey has been seeking original truth about how I am to love and serve and worship God here on earth. What did He establish before He ascended to Heaven? I think I may have found it, but I just need this key to the last lock.
Mother Mary, please grant me my plea. If you do not it means you are not there and I am once again lost. Jesus, I seek Your Truth and only Your Truth. Have you established Your Mother as Queen of Heaven? If so, please, with her, grant me the favor I ask.
In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Ghost, Amen.
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