My First Adoration

Last Friday I attended my first Adoration of the Blessed Sacrament.  A phenomenon occurred that has me pondering what it could have been.  While looking at the Blessed Sacrament in the Monstrance, a fog would form at the edges of my vision and move inward toward the Monstrance filling in my vision with a sort of fog or haze.  Thinking it was just me staring too hard, I double checked my vision on other objects approximately the same size around the room, but no fog.  I also attempted to will it away, thinking maybe I was subconsciously making it up or willing there be no fog while looking elsewhere, and yet it still happened.  Over and over again.

At one point it overwhelmed me and I couldn't bear to look at the Blessed Sacrament for a little while.  So, I humbled myself in prayer, head bowed, eyes closed.  I felt a nudge to look again, but was too scared to.  It took strength to look again, and as before, the fog.

Praying before the Blessed Sacrament was both filling and tiring.  It took a lot out of me spiritually, but added so much.

If I am going to be honest I cannot fully say 100% that I believe in the Real Presence just yet, but I am praying, asking, and seeking the Truth on the matter with God.  I figure the more I spend before the Blessed Sacrament, or at least in focused prayer, the more likely I am to receive my answers.